published in Achieving Your Dreams, Grief, Inspiration, Police Line-Of-Duty Deaths, Writing by Maryanne | September 29, 2014

 

Triumph Over Tragedy – Lessons Learned from Loss

 

John & Maryanne on beach

When John died in the line of duty on September 29th, 2000 it felt as if my life had ended, too. And in a way, it did. Because the moment John’s heart was removed for organ transplant, our life together as a couple was over. I could kick and scream and cry all I wanted (and I did) but at the end of the day, I had two choices: 1) I could spend the rest of my life feeling sorry for myself or; 2) I could learn how to transform loss into positive change.

I chose the latter. And although the path has not been easy, I wouldn’t change a thing – because of all the powerful life lessons I’ve learned. Perhaps my Dad said it best when he told me, about a month after John died: “How you choose to proceed is what will determine whether John’s death was a tragedy or not.”

So in honour of the 14th anniversary of his death, here are 14 lessons I’ve learned from him, his life, his death and all the incredible people I’ve shared my journey with since:

1. Have Courage

It takes courage to go into an unfamiliar building to search for an intruder in the dark.

It takes courage to die as the result of a preventable fall at an unsafe workplace.

It takes courage to give one’s life protecting a premise that didn’t need protecting.

It takes courage to create a new life without the one you love.

It takes courage to love.

It takes courage to fall in love…and be in love.

2. Face Your Fears

Your biggest fears likely hold the greatest potential for growth and change…and not just for you.

3. Stand Up For What You Believe In

If you don’t, who will?

And when you do, you will find you are not alone…you will find your pack.

We can achieve far more by working with others than we can on our own.

John receiving badge from Chief Silverberg

4. There Is No Substitute for Hard Work

I watched John work towards his dream of becoming a police officer for eight years.

I watched him face rejection after rejection from police services across Canada.

I saw how each rejection only made him stronger.

I watched him further his education and actively work to better himself.

I watched how hard he worked at jobs he disliked.

I watched him graduate from police recruit class; a dream fulfilled.

Once he was on the job, I watched him work even harder to become the best officer he could.

Little did I know that all those years, I was also watching a preview of what it would take for me to achieve my dream of becoming a writer…and that was just the beginning.

5. Persevere

As Robert Frost said, the best way out is always through.

As Winston Churchill said, never give up.

As John told me hours before he fell, if I never become a writer…that will have been my choice.

Keep the faith.

The more I fail, the more I learn.

6. Believe in Yourself

Believe in yourself, your purpose, your dreams and your abilities to make the world a better place…because if you don’t, nobody else will.

7. Say No

It’s a powerful word…the more you use it now, the less you’ll need to down the road.

8. Choose Wisely Who You Surround Yourself With

There are energy-givers and energy-takers…you get to choose who to spend your time with.

John in uniform with city in background

9. Have Integrity

Be true to yourself.

Let your actions reflect that which you stand for.

10. Be Strong

True strength is not about having power over another.

True strength is not about putting on a brave face in the midst of tragedy.

True strength means vulnerability.

True strength means compassion.

True strength means forgiveness.

True strength entails picking up the pieces of a shattered situation and putting them back together in the best way you know how.

True strength means knowing when to ask for help…and how to receive it.

11. Honour

It is better to give your life doing something you believe in…than to live your life doing something you don’t.

If you care enough to try and make the world a better place, whether or not you succeed doesn’t matter. What matters is that you care enough to try.

John & Sable at Emerald Lake

12. Have Patience

Anything worthwhile achieving in this life takes time, effort, patience…and probably a great deal of money 🙂

If you show up and do your part, each and every day, the Universe/Powers That Be will meet you halfway and provide you with everything you need – it just might not be on your timeline.

Be patient with yourself.

Be patient with others.

Patience requires accepting that perhaps there is a greater wisdom that knows, far better than you, when the time is right for things to happen.

13. Never Stop Learning

Grow!” whispered the angel to the blade of grass.

Learning is a life-long process.

The more I learn, the more I realize how much I don’t know.

14. Sometimes Tough Love is the Answer

I used to think the worst thing was telling someone a difficult truth. Now I know better.

Tough love means being honest with someone because you care about them. If John hadn’t cared enough to practice tough love on me, I wouldn’t have become a writer.

Maryanne Pope is the CEO of Pink Gazelle Productions and Chair of the John Petropoulos Memorial Fund. She is the author of A Widow’s Awakening and the playwright of Saviour. If you would like to receive her weekly blog, please sign up here.

10 Comments

  1. Andrew Afar on September 29th, 2014 at 1:36 pm:

    how beautiful your comments are.

  2. Joyce on September 29th, 2014 at 7:35 pm:

    Maryanne, your words are so amazing. I think you are amazing with everything you say and do to keep Johnny’s memory alive. All the best.

  3. Maryanne on September 30th, 2014 at 4:17 pm:

    Thank you, Joyce! You are an amazing person yourself…and John sure thought the world of you, too 🙂
    Maryanne

  4. Esther on October 1st, 2014 at 10:43 am:

    How beautiful Maryanne. I feel closer to John by reading this- what a special person he was. Bless his memory. I’m honoured to get to know him and the lessons he taught through your beautiful writing.

    xoEsther

  5. simon on October 1st, 2014 at 9:17 pm:

    A fantastic tribute Maryanne.

    Thank you fou for doing this!

    All the best.

    Simon

  6. Sarah on October 2nd, 2014 at 11:57 am:

    What an inspiring piece. I think your points are so valuable for people recovering from loss or tragedy. And also helpful for anyone who wants to re-focus and remind themselves of what is important ~ like believing in yourself, being true to yourself, being patient, compassionate and forgiving, and to never stop learning and loving.

  7. Ann on October 2nd, 2014 at 10:06 pm:

    Thank you Magic Monk for words to live by.

  8. Maryanne on October 3rd, 2014 at 2:12 pm:

    Thank you for your kind words, Sarah!
    Maryanne

  9. Maryanne on October 3rd, 2014 at 2:12 pm:

    You are very welcome, Simon! I have learned an awful lot 🙂

    Take care,
    Maryanne

  10. Maryanne on October 3rd, 2014 at 2:13 pm:

    Thank you, Esther 🙂
    Maryanne

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