published in A Widow's Awakening Book, Change, Depression, Grief, Health, Life After Loss by Maryanne | November 26, 2013

Updated Oct 11th, 2017

 

When Grief Goes On and On – 5 Healthy Ways to Help Heal a Broken Heart

 

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“I’ve never seen any life transformation that didn’t begin with the person in question finally getting tired of their own bullshit.”

– Elizabeth Gilbert

As Elizabeth Gilbert expressed in her book, Eat, Pray Love, overwhelming emotions can sometimes become so strong and familiar that they almost seem to have their own identity.

I experienced this with grief: an old – but not so dear – friend. Grief came to visit when I was 32. Just barged on in the front door of my heart and took up residence like she owned the joint. And like any uninvited and annoying house-guest, she just wouldn’t leave.

But I kind of got used to her hanging around, I guess, because as much as she was dragging me down and holding me back, being with her 24-7 had also become strangely comfortable…an excuse, if you will, for not moving on. But when months turned into years that threatened to turn into half a decade, I realized I had to put my foot down.

Grief had overstayed her welcome; it was time for her to go.

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Funnily enough, it was a Christmas tree that finally drove a wedge into our friendship. A few years after my husband’s death, it was my Dad who pointed out – subtly, for he knew how close grief and I had become – that perhaps our relationship was no longer healthy.

“Maryanne,” he said, pointing to the, admittedly, very sad-looking Christmas tree in my living room, “that is a fire hazard.”

To which I nodded. “I know.”

“It’s March,” he said. “It’s been up for three months.”

To which I nodded again. “I know.”

“So why haven’t you taken it down?” he asked.

I shrugged. “I don’t know.”

And I didn’t. It just didn’t seem to matter. Nothing seemed to matter anymore. It was just one lousy day after the other…plod, plod, plod, blah, blah, blah. The only difference between one day and the next was a few more pine needles under the tree. And the fact that I was watching a dead tree slowly decompose in my living room seemed a fitting metaphor for how I felt.

And that, I suspect (in hindsight), is what depression looks like – or rather, situational depression. And what is situational depression but grief’s BFF. Grief must have snuck her in through a window when I wasn’t looking!

So I threw them BOTH out.

Oh sure…they took their sweet time to pack their bags and leave. And then, of course, they came back once in awhile – okay, a lot – to visit. Sometimes they brought another pal along: self-pity. Now that is one ugly chick.

But I finally figured something out: instead of slamming the door in their face, I opened it and let them all in.

We’d have a cup of tea, a few cookies, a good cry…and then I would look at my watch and say, “Look at the time! I really must get back to my reasonably okay life and my somewhat positive attitude, proactive work, trying to be happy again and remembering to be grateful for all that I DO have…”

To which, naturally, they rolled their eyes. But they got the hint and left. And eventually, they stopped coming by altogether. Because if there’s one thing grief and depression (and yes, even self-pity), despise, it’s a happy heart.

I don’t miss them whatsoever – but boy, did those gals ever teach me a lot.

5 Healthy Ways to Help Heal a Broken Heart:

1.  Be aware of what you are choosing as coping mechanisms

Unhealthy coping mechanisms are ways by which we try to escape our pain…alcohol, drugs, eating (too much or not enough), shopping, incessant busyness, becoming a workaholic, etc.

If the coping mechanisms you’re using are no longer serving you, make a conscious change to healthier ones, such as:

A) Get physically active – whatever it is, make it a habit…part of your weekly or daily routine.

B) Get out into into nature. A walk in the woods or along a river can soothe the soul like nothing else.

C) Consider getting a pet. My two dogs helped me get through the toughest years. They were always happy to see me and their enthusiasm made me smile. They gave me unconditional love and their needs forced me to get out for a walk everyday.

D) Volunteer. When we are involved with helping others, the importance of our own drama diminishes.

E) Read inspirational books and watch uplifting movies, especially comedies. Laughter heals.

F) Be around positive people who love and support you…and make you smile 🙂

2. Honour the hurt

The sooner you acknowledge (admit to yourself) the full extent of your loss and the seemingly bottomless depth of the hurt you are feeling, the sooner you’ll be able to heal. When we deny our own truth – as horrific as that may be – we only postpone the healing process.

Here’s a trick: whenever hurt comes to the surface, don’t run from feeling it. Instead, STOP whatever you are doing and simply FEEL the loss, the sorrow, the pain, the hurt, the anger – and then let it go. Yes, you will cry. But the sooner you release those emotions from your heart, the better.

Mitch Albom’s book, Tuesday’s With Morrie, does a beautiful job of explaining the gifts that come from honouring one’s hurt.

3. Express/share what you are thinking and feeling

Talk to a good friend and/or a professional about what you are really experiencing. Be honest! You may be thinking and/or feeling some awfully strange stuff (says I from experience), so the sooner you can get that out of you, the better.

The catch, however, is to choose the person wisely. They have to be a good listener, empathetic and non-judgemental. Most importantly, it cannot be about them. You know you’ve found a good person to talk to when you leave the conversation feeling better than when you started.

Journaling can really help, too. Or painting, etc.

4. Find a positive outlet for the negative emotions

Whether that is finding a way to transform your hurt into something beneficial for others, finding a personal way to honour what or who has been lost, or simply finding joy and purpose in your new life…do something purposeful that is meaningful to you and brings you moments of happiness again. Those happy moments will begin to expand.

5. Take it one day at a time – baby steps!

Give yourself permission to make mistakes because you will – over and over again. And that’s okay. To me, for the longest time the grieving process felt like one step forward then two steps back. But the more small steps forward I took, the less time I spent beating myself up for taking the backwards ones. And remember:

“The only courage that matters is the kind that gets you from one moment to the next.”

– Mignon McLaughlin

If we have the courage to truly love in this life, we will get hurt. Grief is a natural, normal and healthy response to the anguish that goes with learning to live without that which we have loved…be that a person, pet, relationship, dream, place – even our old self. Grief has a very significant role to play, yes – but it’s up to us to recognize when it has become more of a hindrance than a healer.

Maryanne Pope is the author of A Widow’s Awakening and the playwright of Saviour. Maryanne is the CEO of Pink Gazelle Productions Inc and the Chair of the John Petropoulos Memorial Fund. To receive Maryanne’s monthly e-zine, The Watering Hole, please sign up here.

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10 Comments

  1. Jody on November 27th, 2013 at 12:17 am:

    After one more night of sharing BTS presentation with wonderful Victim Assistance Unit members… i thought about you all the way home. And once again you describe loss so… clearly… and healing so… important. Thanks for sharing your heart Maryanne. It is always an honor to be part of your journey.

  2. Deborah on November 27th, 2013 at 1:57 am:

    A huge cup of revelation, wisdom and experience shared here. Thank you for sharing.

  3. Colleen G. on November 30th, 2013 at 8:51 pm:

    Yes,
    MA you did reach the soul of grief and certaninly that gives one the knowledge to make those little steps to surface from the deepth of despair. I enjoyed your words of wisdom as you know I have connected with all you have conveyed.
    With love, honour and respect.
    Colleen G.

  4. Maryanne on December 4th, 2013 at 1:05 pm:

    This just came in through e-mail:

    I loved your blog!!! So beautifully written, so insightful, so psychologically accurate!!! You’re a gifted gal! I would love to share this with some of my clients.
    SR, Calgary, AB

  5. Glynis McGarva on October 12th, 2017 at 10:56 am:

    Wow, this post was really speaking to me — I found your description of situational depression insightful as well. Over three years now for me and I am still on a daily struggle to find some kind of new norm that I am happy with.

  6. Maryanne on October 12th, 2017 at 3:11 pm:

    Hi Glynis…oh boy, I am glad this situational depression blog resonated with you. Yes…it DOES take time to find some sort of new normal when the rug has been yanked out from under your feet, like it was for you.

    You are doing amazing 🙂
    See you soon,
    ma

  7. Ella Wall Prichard on October 18th, 2017 at 6:37 pm:

    I agree with everything you write but I’d add one thing. For some, grief simply won’t leave. A grief specialist introduced me to the clinical term, “complicated grief.” Google it. About 1 in 5 grievers experience it, & certain circumstances make it more likely. These grievers sink into clinical depression & often need professional help. Don’t grieve forever. Help is available.

  8. Maryanne on October 24th, 2017 at 1:20 pm:

    Hi Ella! Wow…that is VERY interesting about complicated grief. I just googled it and there is an excellent article posted by the Mayo Clinic: https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/complicated-grief/symptoms-causes/syc-20360374

    Thank you so much for bringing this to my attention. And I loved your last line: “Don’t grieve forever. Help is available.”

    Take care and thanks for reading!
    Maryanne

  9. Terri garbutt on July 6th, 2019 at 10:08 am:

    Great insight! I forgot about that tree! Very well put. Kudos to you my friend

  10. Maryanne on July 16th, 2019 at 1:10 pm:

    Ah yes…the fire hazard tree 🙁 That was a LONG time ago, my friend. Thank goodness!
    Pope

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